I wrote the following  on Friday, June 10, 2011 on an older blog I created (Cappucino/The Other Side of Me). I just so happen to look at it yesterday and I was so amazed on how far I have come. Pain comes, but it only last for a short time. I live in Texas so it is part of "Tornado Alley".  The thought is this: "Have you ever seen a tornado touch down to the ground and remain for 365 days? It will touch down and last for a matter of minutes, maybe even an hour or two, it is just like pain...it comes for a moment..but it does not last forever." 




Pain I release you

Disappointment you are not my friend

There is never any joy associated with stolen love, from one that belongs to another

What was I thinking?

Was I really willing to deviate from a chosen path by listening to the hiss of a disguised serpent?

This serpent spoke gentle, kind, sweet words and directed his attention to me when I needed it most, continuously luring me into a trap, and like "Alice in Wonderland" I fell, so far and deep that I never realized my emotions, heart and physical body were being broken. 

Now that I have fallen to the bottom of the pit, where is he? He has slivered off, hiding in the bushes awaiting  his next prey. 

Here I sit confused, broken and emotionally drained, my first love comes to rescue me, HE comes to the bottom of the pit and pulls me up, offering me HIS protection, hiding me in HIS arms. Forgiving me for ever leaving HIS side. HE is the true gentleman, the One whose love will never change. My Warrior, who will fight my battles. 

To the serpent, your tail will soon be crushed and your head cut-off. 

Update on Internet Dating Websites

I had the opportunity to watch "Catfish:The TV Show", WOW! I couldn't believe how many people are willing to impersonate other people over the web. I just want to give a quick update on my experience, I have not met the "Man of My Dreams" (if he even exist), but I have met potential friends, if nothing else. 

I have been contacted by several guys, but I have only responded to a few. It is highly recommended to Skype, Google hangout or Webcam with the person on the other end, by doing this you both know you are real people and not figments of someone's twisted imagination. No matter what, BE SAFE!. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR...WELCOME TO 2013

HAPPY NEW YEAR 

It is my prayer that everyone all over the world have a blessed and prosperous New Year. I believe that we have the power to change things in our lives. Change our thought process from negative to positive, change the way we act or react to situations, be more friendly towards others. Instead of instantly judging someone from another culture or ethnic background, find out something about the person before you pass judgment. If we can change our physical appearances, then why can't we change our emotional and mental behaviors. It is my challenge to you, to perform an overhaul of your mind, body and soul....live a healthy life. Until next time, Peace and Blessings!

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13 NKJV

Experimenting with Fashion

I have always enjoyed fashion, but I enjoy it my way. Since I am on this new road to freedom. I will be trying different styles and fashions.

OOTD
Hat:   Charming Charlie's   $12
Wrap:  Lane Bryant  $49
Black Turtleneck:  Catherines   $15

Positive In...Negative Out

I am a firm believer that we are never "too old" to learn new things or change our ways. In my journey towards freedom I have been seeking the Lord and asking Him to help me see myself. My good friend and I traveled to her son's university for "Parents Weekend" and while we were driving, she played a CD from a Sunday Morning worship service where Dr. Cindy Trimm was the guest speaker. When I arrived home, I searched the internet and found more inspirational CD's and books from Dr. Trimm. On book, in particular "The 40 Day Soul Fast" caught my attention and I purchased it". After reading this book, I have learned to exchange old habits and characteristics. "Positive In....Negative Out", make a positive impact on the world. Til next time.....Peace and Blessings!

Internet Dating Websites

Overloaded work schedules, school or not really into the bar or club scene are a few reasons some of my colleagues and friends have given me for them signing up on "internet dating sites".  I have met so many people who have either met their husband or wife through an internet dating site.  My daughter, suggested I give internet dating a try.  So away I go, I am a "curvy girl", so I found a dating site for BBW's (big beautiful women) and their admirers. I set up my profile and posted a few pictures, unfortunately I was contacted by a male who said he was a military officer from Ireland working undercover.  Red flags started popping up and I could hear Astro from the Jetson's "ruh roh". I asked the perpetrator if the person whose photos he posted, knew he had them (or stole them).  I blocked him and the thought came into my mind that this is going to be a horrible experience since I hadn't dated in a while, was it really worth it? So I decided to never signed on to the site again. Several months went by and my daughter asked me how it was going, did I ever meet anyone and I told her my story, but she suggested I not give up.  One day I happened across an Emagazine for plus size women and there was an advertisement for a website called "Venus Diva Dating", there are several things I like about this site, during the set up of your profile, there is an option to verify your profile, you take a picture of yourself with your member number on a piece of paper and the host will place a star on your profile to verify that it is authentic. Now the "weed and seed" process  is up to you, I am taking my time and I hope to meet new friends, who knows what could happen in the future, I will keep you updated. Til next time...Peace and Blessings!

Wheatgrass Shots........Beneficial or Not?

I must admit, I have not been good to my body over the years. I was a smoker and now I have been smoke-free for 16 months and counting. My eating habits were on the fritz (emotional eating), I watched my weight get out of control and I can't blame anyone but myself.  I have repented to God for abusing the body He has blessed me with and promised to take better care of it. A good friend and I have decided to eat right and exercise, so we are searching for ways and methods that work for us. Her daughter lives in New York, she mentioned taking a wheat grass shot. My friend went to a neighborhood "Jamba Juice" and took a shot and said it wasn't bad. So I did some research. One of the websites I visited LivingStrong.com list the benefits of wheat grass as clearing the digestive system (relieving constipation), helps treat a cold, bronchitis, mouth and throat inflammation.

My friend called me the day after her wheat grass shot, she said it gave her a lot of energy, cleared her sinus cavity and she is going to make it part of her weekly routine. So after church today, we are going to go and take a wheat grass shot. I'll keep you informed. Thanks for viewing...Peace and Blessings!